Sans Ailes...

I'm blue...

2007-04-28T02:41:00.000-07:00

Erect betwixt these pale facts, I eventually have to confess that:

je ne suis qu'une fille banale...

Despite my humble wishes, I turned out to be an ordinary person.There's no miracles in the world, I realize at last.

Am I just seeking after an untouchable dream in vain?

I'm always bothered and tempted by something ridiculous and naif in spite of my willingness to achieve my ambitious dream-the so-called dream. But it seems so difficult......

Abashed and ashamed, I'm quite disappointed at myself-I'm ordinary, neither intelligent, nor wise.

I've tried my best to stand out but what greeted me at last is those miserable marks.

I've never been so depressed all my life...all my life......

what a mess

a great depression

2007-04-23T03:22:00.000-07:00

I've never found myself so humble today compared to my outstanding classmates.
who are all ambitious girls and with whom you should never adjust your status.
Well, I admit that I'm someone who easily get jealous and pretentious. I pretend to be calm even in case of concurrence but it doesn't do.
What's more, I cannot control myself when lost in my ideal world. not being a realist, I can only le laisser tomber.
How should I do????

Mes amis francais viendront!!

2007-03-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

Je reverrai bientôt mes amis français, ce qui me fera beaucoup de plaisirs!!!
Demain j'aurais une réunion et ainsi je pourrai m'échapper au cours de français!C génial enfin bon!
Mais j'aurais cinq contrôles la semaine prochaine et je serais foutue!!
Alors je vais réfléchir à ce que je dois leur acheter en tant que cadeaux...

Rin

2007-03-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

Rin, my love...
donc j'ai fait un dessin d'elle en memoire de ma petite fillette...

being a little blue...

2007-03-07T02:08:00.000-08:00

Another day is passing away...

leaving the time flowing between my fingers,

hard to seize firmly

here with the storm growling

I bury my soul into the snow

impossible to purify

My sorrow here for you

my shelter collapsed all of a sudden

and I was bleeding here and there

nobody around me

and no consolations

In the solitude of eternity

I'm living in a desert...

Retour en Chine

2007-02-21T23:50:00.000-08:00

I'm now in China!!!!!!!!!!
C'était un voyage magnifique!Il faisait très beau en Australie: j'essayerai de mettre quelque photos sur mon site ici afin de vous montrer comment ça s'est passé!
bon en bref c'était très marrant très marrant...

Quel bordel

2007-01-31T03:31:00.000-08:00

I had a quarreling with my mom today.
I could never understand why she's so "exisgeante". She's not rigid nor strict but is always giving me a lot of pressure...
What did I do wrongly?
It was all because of my cousin who got a really high mark in her final-term exam. She was the 10th in her class while I the 4th. I was already upset with myself coz I ought to obtain the first place. During the dinner, mom spoke highly of her, beaucoup d'eloges, bien sur, then she began to criticize me-I didn't know why I was so moody recently but I burst into tears right away and shouted at her.
She glared at me but said nothing.
Was I wrong???
I was always in the first rang of class while my worst mark was the 6th in my studying career, which is to mean ten years. She does think it easy or not?She does see my efforts and my struggling and endeavoring against the difficulties?Can't she see how many first prizes I got during ten years?Must she be so different and so cruel?I confess that I'm not willing to study, for what I'm doing is not what I like.Despite my good marks, why would she be so severe?
I'm really tired,really tired.
J'en ai marre...

2007-01-29T02:28:00.000-08:00

Where's the sea?
I don't know why I was just looking for the sea
But the only thing I found was a desert
a desert
around me

Emilie Simon

I usually found myself drowned in a sea where I can harly perceive my soul?Is it rotten or...bleeding?
I caught a climpse of him today in front of his classroom. We didn't wear our ugly uniforms and...he was so "brillant" in appearance. He proved to be an adolescent full of energy, yes a promising guy. He might have been always in hope of being admitted by the best university here in our country.His dream would take off then...
I bit my lips when hearing that he'd decided to go to the same college with his "girl". I believed having been indifferent and calm enough- but I felt clearly that the dreadful pain was invading my heart, part by part, until it became ponctured everywhere.
I don't want to lie. I'm suffering painfully. Being suffering from the modality we bear, I shall let nothing fled from my mind.
There's only a desert around me...

mélodie de la dynastie Tang

2007-01-28T04:14:00.000-08:00

C'est un dessin que j'ai fait hier. Voilà la dynastie Tang（618~907 apres JC). C'était une époque chatoyante et éclatante. La Chine a rencontré toute sa prospérité et sa gloire à cette époque. Chang'An, la capitale, était toujours considérée la métropole la plus grande du monde entier.J'y rêve toujours depuis mon enfance. Une jolie mémoire...
Je ne sais pas pourquoi j'ai décidé de faire ce dessin au tone de rouge.Personnellement, je n'aime guère cette couleur qui représente toujours mon pays natal.Mais enfin bon...

So hard to go on a diet!!!

2007-01-28T03:05:00.000-08:00

O lala!Je crois que je vais bientôt mourir à cause de ce maudit régime.
Oui, je suis au régime récemment. C vraiment inhumain et mortel mais il me faut quand même continuer.Ce qui me fait un tt petit peu de plaisirs est que j'ai perdu deux kilos et demie en sept jours. C déjà un succès, n'est ce pas?
Je suis en vacances mais je ne sens pas du tt l'odeur de la joie car je suis exceptionnellement occupée.On a encore des cours maintenant bien qu'on soit en vacances!Hihi c très gentil...
Rien de neuf mais je voudrais annoncer que je vais maigrir!
Vous verrez pas une boulotte mais un mince lapin.
Lapin, c mon surnom.

Vive les vacances!!!

2007-01-24T03:09:00.001-08:00

Je suis enfin en vacances!!!!!
Ca me fait vraiment beaucoup de plaisirs de faire tt ce que je veux!!!!!!Génial!!!Pour l'instant, j'ai pas encore eu de plans mais c certain que je partirai en Australie dans douze jours!
Malgré le fait que j'ais des tas de devoirs, je m'amuserai bien.
Le temps passe vite ici. Il y a déjà sept mois que j'ai quitté la France. Je crois avoir déjà regreté à cause de la pression qu'on subit toujours chez nous: oui, la concurrence. J'en ai marre j'en ai marre!
Je voudrais aussi dire merci à Mina, Marlène,Virginie, Solène et Ketty pour le cadeau que vous m'avez fait pour mon anniversaire. C'était très gentil!
Et aussi merci bien à Laura qui était la première personne à laisser un message sur mon blog.Tu me vois?Tu me vois?
Yvonne

For my friends

2006-12-06T02:21:00.000-08:00

Actually I've created several blogs all written in Chinese, though.
I feel it really inconvenient to communicate with my foreign friends who may have some difficulties reading them, so I decided to create another blog here in order to share my feelings with my buddies in a pratical way.
I used to be so confused because I didn't know whether to choose English or French as my blog language. I've got a lot of friends and copines and of course my heart is always for them.But finally I made the choice of English coz anyway it's the most widely spoken language in the world.
I hope my French friends can forgive me thouth I will record a majority of my feelings in French.
Love from Yvonne who love you all for ever...